The title of this song reminds me of everything I’ve gone through over the past year. My trust in people is so damaged due to many of them walking out of my life. I realize now that it’s not something that will go away over several months, it’s could be there for the rest of my life. One of my biggest fears was abandonment and it’s turned into a nightmare that I’m living. It was really difficult at first but I’m doing a little better now, in terms of my mood though I still remain very shut off. I can’t forgive or forget what has happened and I’m not sure if I’ll ever truly heal from it. It just shows you that you need to be careful who you let into your life, you never know if they’re going to stab you in the back tomorrow. And with every new person I might meet, I’m terrified of being let down again and I’ve lost faith in people.
I’m taking a ride with my best friend. I hope he never lets me down again.